I HATE my coworkers.

Plain and simple really. So I borrowed this cool ice pack thing that straps to your ankle. I had it in the freezer at work cause I don't have a freezer in my CHU. I did pt today and afterwards planned to ice my ankle like the doc said to. I get to the shop and the ice pack is on the counter completely useless and a note on the freezer to me which basically said to not put an ice pack that has been on my feet in the freezer next to food and stuff which is understandable but thats not the point. The point is they could give a shit about Stewart. They could have put it in a plastic bag(in fact I should have done that to begin with sorry guys), or at least some sort of ice replacement so I would have something you know. Well anyway I adapted cause thats all I can do with these jerks. They were so mean like down right cruel. Anyway I found some ice luckily and put it in a plastic bag, it got the job done. Damn I hate these people there's only a few good ones in the whole shop. I wish I could come home. I miss my family. Sorry about the rant I just had to get it off my chest.

Twisted Ankle

So yeah i ran a 16:45 today and at the very end I rolled my ankle something fierce. Damn does it hurt I have an ACE bandage on it and I took a tylenol. It is pretty swollen. Luckily I don't have maintance today. I miss you Robin. I wish you were here to nurse my battle wounds. I roll my ankle alot actually and this one is probably the worst I have had. I almost broke it I think but it should be ok. Kisses for Robin and Ben. I love you both so much.

In the style of the Hubs or How I SUCK ASS

So, folks. I failed my pt test. I'm not surprised at that exactly but I am surprised at everything I failed at. Which really was almost EVERYTHING. Damn it.
NOt only that I've gained almost 6 pounds since october. Thank god it was only 6. But still...
My whole weekend sucked ass. SUCKED ASSS!!!!
but now I'm ok.
so. yeah

And another one bites the dust..(or the Hard Look)

2 miles: 16:25
So I had to get up on my day off and go run but hey I gotta do so it's cool. I did ok showing progress from the pt test. I guess the other day was just a bad day. I miss my family. I can't beleive how much my wife loves me. I don't think anyone could ever love me as much as Robin does, save for the Lord above. I am truely blessed I have the love of a good woman, I am getting healthier everyday, getting smarter, growing mentally and I wish I was growing spiritually. God loves me and I love Him but we don't talk as much as we used to. I wish I called my family more then I do, they care so much for me. This blog has turned into a introspective microscope. I am really taking a hard look at myself. Hopefully I will be better for it. I want to be a better man for my wife and for my son. My son needs a good man to look up to and draw his morals and standards from, I just hope I am up for this task.

Stress!!!

Wish me luck on the pt test peoples!!!
MORE luck on the weigh in

This is my life

So here i am at this crazy blog thing. I have heard of these of course. I have just never tried doing one myself but the lovely wife can get me to do anything. In fact if she told me to I would jump off a bridge. She is my life. I am hoping to really buckle down and get able to be promoted. Right now I am working on this crazy thing called PT. For some reason the Army thinks its pretty important an so I have to make it a priority. In fact I am going to include my progress in this and future posts. Second on the agenda is maxing correspondence courses. Thats 1000 hours. so far I have 62(its a long road but its be traveled before many times). Whenever the damn eArmyu site gets back up I also plan to start college. I think I will enjoy architecture so I am gonna try to major in that. Well I suppose this is a good start. I love you Robin. I love you Ben. By the way i ran a 17:27 today, total sucksville.

SOOOOO Tired

So it's very late. And I've had a REALLY great day. An amazing and completely happy day. And it all started last night, just after midnight. Hats off to Kris. And Then I went to bed, ben was kinda antsy all night, up and whiny, but he calmed down and snuggled up all nice the way I like( it's what's keeping me up btw, knowing he's not there). We got up pretty early, seven-ish, had a pretty ok morning. He and I both decided it was way to early to be up and napped on the couch for about two hours watching Disney on and off. It was great. We had a little munchy and then got dressed, discovered we got PAID!!! and went to the lys and to pay bills. got lots at the lys, and NO bills paid hahaha. We talked with daddy a little on the cell. Then we headed off to grandma's. He's staying with her while I work tomorrow. I always miss him so much. ON the way to grandma's Isaiah called. We had the most amazing conversation. I could cry. I'm having such a hard time with him gone. Sometimes I don't think I know who I am, sometimes I get scared, worried about what we have. Deep down, I'm not afraid, I know that we'll always be together. But there's so much to be scared of. And honestly there are some things that I just don't feel anymore, things that I want to feel, And I'm really scared that if it gets bad enough I will do something drastic to feel them again. I'm scared of that, because I love my husband. And I don't want to do anything to hurt him. Ever. It's a scary time for me.
I'm losing myself again. I don't like me entirely.
But today, talking with him, I almost felt alive again. I could almost remember what it felt like to be hugged. Almost remember the smell of love. Almost remember the feel of his lips, his skin. I can almost feel his breath on my neck, I can almost hear his whisper. There was just a taste of what it used to be like today. But it was just a taste. It went away. But you know what that little taste made me entirely happy ALL DAY! Only now it's so late. And the wind has changed, his kisses floating away like leaves on a river.
It's so odd, to be so worried about losing myself, losing him, and yet knowing that because I'm so worried, It means I love him more than anything.
Talking with newfound friends tonight, I realize how much I have, and How thankful I should be.
I know now, that when I see threads or posts from women complaining about not hearing from their husbands for a few weeks, I should be sympathetic instead of angry and jealous. Because if their love is like mine, then a few weeks is just as bad as these ten months.
Isaiah, you are the greatest man I have ever known. No one understands me like you do, and no one in their right minds would treat me as wonderfully as you do, and I know that sometimes I take you completely for granted, but please know that without you I would die. Immediately.
And I'd give up forever to touch you, Cause I know that you feel me somehow. You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be And I don't want to go home right now. And all I can taste is this moment, And all I can breathe is your life, Cause sooner or later it's over. I just don't want to miss you tonight.I don't want the world to see me, Cause I don't think that they'd understand When everything's made to be broken, I just want you to know who I am . (goo goo dolls- Iris)


PMS.

"...and then she showed me her Rat!!"

This story has many Stories surrounding it. Some would say I was interviewing a babysitter, while other would tell you she was looking for a hot time. Either way, I ended up with my finger bit.....
Here are the facts.
1. She WAS morbidly obese
B. She had a LOT of cats.
5. Her rat not only didn't like men, but apparently me either.(Grammar Police!!!)
and F. I got out of there as SOON as possible.
Bleeding.
Profusely.





Bitch.

Oddly Enough

Story Of My LIfe. Everything. Is.
Oddly enough.
Rat Story to come ;)